Carrie Underwood suffered multiple miscarriages while trying to get pregnant with her second child.
The Cry Pretty hitmaker and husband Mike Fisher are now expecting a sibling for their three-year-old son, but she reveals she miscarried three times in 2017 and 2018.
"I'd kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby. We got pregnant early 2017, and it didn't work out," Carrie told U.S. breakfast show CBS Sunday Morning. "It happens. And that was the thing, in the beginning it was like, 'OK God, we know this... just wasn't your timing, and that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it'. And (I) got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn't work out. (I) got pregnant again, early 2018. Didn't work out. So, at that point, it was just kind of like, 'OK... what's the deal? What is all of this?'"
Carrie admitted she was "afraid to be angry" about the triple tragedies, because she has such a "blessed" life.
"My son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing," she continued. "And he's the best thing in the world. And I'm like, 'If we can never have any other kids, that's OK, because he's amazing'. And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can't. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No."
However, after she thought she was having another miscarriage with her current pregnancy she began to question why she was still getting pregnant if she wasn't able to carry the baby to term.
"Mike was away just for the evening, and I texted him, and I was like, 'I don't really want to be alone, so I'm just gonna go snuggle with Isaiah'," she said. "And I don't know how I didn't wake him up, but I was just sobbing. And I was like, 'Why on earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can't have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid'."
"That was, like, a Saturday - and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage, and they told me everything was great!" she explained.